I'm Lost...

“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.”

I Peter 5:8

I mean I always had a feeling yet I repressed it. Looked back on who I used to be and the Word that I once stood on, and it seemed to be nothing more than a memory...

There was power in my praise! There was truth in my words....the words that God spoke through me. Yet my ways became more important than God's way. I settled for less when he had so much more for me. So close to my season, but I settled for seasons past. I fell victim to what was once familiar and headed down the road of formally loosing myself. Sometimes you don't see the enemy until you've panted yourself into a corner, and can seem to determine just how you will get out of this spot. I'm stuck, and the paint is wet!! I settled for a love that was not of God. A man made love that could not understand the intricate details or intimacy that is Christ. Today I woke up and realized that God's plan was intentional. So yeah I'm here lost, empty, unfulfilled, and alone. Lacking....

So this is my journey back to him....back to joy, back to peace, back to happiness, back to where I belong. This won't be easy.....but I'm here. The ONLY important thing is that when he looks at me he sees his blood not the sin that would cause him to turn away from me. 

So here goes nothing....